please, please help me...no one knows whats wrong

[Lost]

ok..here goes...this is a somewhat long, convoluted tale, but if anyone out there is fond or adept at problem solving, please read through..if not, skip to the bottom and see my absurdly long list of question.

A little over a year ago, I woke up in the morning with a strange, pressure like sensation in my forehead (please be aware of the fact that I was a recreational drug user for about a year and this change occurred about a week after a binge period of cocaine and ecstasy) -- accompanying this feeling was one of slight mental stupor. At first I associated the problem with a developing cold/sinus infection. However, as weeks passed, the pressure augmented -- I felt like my entire head was in a vacuum -- also the mental stupor evolved into something much larger -- I could not focus on anything, understand anything or articulate myself properly (literally)-- I felt trapped in the twighlight zone -- nothing made sense to me anymore and I thought I was going insane.

I saw specialist after specialist (general practicitioners, neurologists, allergists etc) and they performed numerous tests (like cat scan of sinuses and head, eeg and mri). They found nothing -- Meanwhile as I moved slowyly through life wondering what the hell was wrong with me, my depersonalization developed along with severe panic attacks.

I took every type of medication available (neurontin, depakote, nortriptyline, midrin) --they all worked slightly but the effects were fleeting, lasting only about 2 days. Then, I would revert back to my normal, depressed, anxious, perplexed, chronic pain ridden and intellectually hindered self.

Finally, I was referred to psychiatry -- my psychiatrist put me on clonopin and paxil because he thought that i was just really stressed -- again the cocktail worked at the beginning for about 2 days but then i felt crappy again.

Now, i am on 40mgs daily of paxil..granted, i feel slightly better but i still feel miserable.

What I really need to know is what the heck happened to me?

Could this have been a minor stroke?

Could it be severe anxiety?

What can be done for the head pain?

Why is it that now I can utter a few words verbally but not be able to continue talking coherently? ie, I say something to someone but then i forget what i want to say next and become lost and confused.

please please please,

any suggestions or just anything at all would be helpful.

thank you all in advance so much for your input

[Jocelyn Thompson]

I am very sorry to about your symptoms. Just the fact that your body is out of control so to speak is enough to make you have anxiety and depression. Since you have tried allopathic doctors why not try alternative doctors now. Look in your yellow pages if that does not work try the www. Goodluck and don't forget to pray and thank your maker.

[Lost]

sorry to do this, but things are becoming excruciatingly frustrating for me as I am living in purgatory...

can anyone please provide me with even some remotely possible explanations and or assistance?

I implore you..

thanks again

[anagelformom]

Hi,

First let me say I am not a doctor, just a person who has a mom who had a stroke. And also a person who reads and listens to anything related to strokes.

I was watching a talk show on the drug ecstacy and I recall them talking about the same affects that you are talking about. There were people there who survived overdoses and are perminantly brain dammaged from that drug. I assume the doctors you saw know the kinds of affects ecstacy can have on the brain when useded in large doses, right?

If I were you I would keep going to different doctors and continue to look at your brain. All of it, not just where you are feeling the pain. Do some research on the drugs that you took and what damage they can do.

Let me also say, it is wonderful that you stopped doing drugs. Keep clean and keep asking questions. Most of all pray. The answer will come.

God Bless.