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Hi fellow board members,

I am currently working in a small company as an office clerk, and my working life so far has been miserable and full of dread, because of my shyness with women.

Because I'm working as a clerk, i give support and assistance to every sales representative in this office. In this office, there are 2 sales rep who are females and good friends with each other, and I'm terribly shy of them. Every time when one of them needs my help and walks toward my working desk, I got this dread and anxiety coming from inside me. Their appearance are above average and they are highly educated.

I admit that ever since I reach my adolescence age, I got this slight hatred against women generally especially the good looking ones because I been rejected a few time before. I am not attractive, very short height and not highly educated. I wonder if the dread and anxiety came from the fact that both of them are more attractive and educated than I am.

Please give me some advices or solutions on how to cope with this