| | Help me; Hallucinations followed by panic attack
Okay I've been searching the net to find out about what I experience whenever I go to sleep and I've found cases with some of my happenings but nothing with everything I'm experiencing.
Firstly this doesn't happen regularly...the first occurance was some months ago but I summed it up to me overworking and getting little to no sleep. It happened several times throughout that month/period. I was concerned then and went as far as telling my friends about it, but it eventually stop occuring.
Before it stopped I resorted to forcing myself not to sleep or trying to delay my sleep by trying to stay up watching tv until morning. Usually I fell asleep with the tv on and when I woke in the mornings it would still be on. My mom would complain about the tv being on the whole time but I was too embarassed to tell her that I was afraid of falling asleep because I would have some traumatic episodes.
I'm now on vacation couple months after and it has occured 3 times again.
Usually I watch tv for a while until I'm a bit tired then I fall asleep...during my sleep I will hear sounds like a bomb ticking or any other disturbing sounds. I also have hallucinations in which my eyes are fully opened in the darkened room (I sleep with the lights off) and yet I see images. During that time I usually blink a lot to check if what I'm seeing is real and it seems very real. These episodes always make me feel like I'm literally going to die.
The last 2 episodes I had were at 2 different locations. At the first location I went to sleep in my cousins bedrooms with my son and I feel asleep and started hearing sounds...I woke up, jumped out of the bed and started pacing the room because I was traumatized and convinced I was going to die.
The other time I experienced this was last night, July 20, 2011. I went to bed and shortly after..possibly within 10-15, I started hallucinating...I doubt I was in deep sleep because at one point I was scanning the room and at 2 sections I saw some objects that made me feel like I was going to die...so again I flew up out of my bed and turn on the light. I was terrified. In all instances I calm down couple minutes after..but I'm unable to recall everything that just happened like what were the symbols/items or the stuff I hallucinated. In the morning I feel like I have partial amnesia of what happened.
Oh...one of my earlier experiences just came back to me...it took a while for me to fall asleep then I heard some noises in my darkened room so I opened my eyes then I started to see some stuff like...grrr it sooo hard to try to remember exactly what they were, but they are always objects...like a sword, rope, just something disturbing. After I saw it I just felt like I was going to die...my limbs started to pain me...mostly my arms and I was convinced I was dying right there and then because I could feel the life draining out of me...starting from my hands. I turned on m light, layed down in my bed for a long time and I even started calling people telling them I wasn't going to make it through the night. I was just terrified to sleep again...eventually I feel asleep after trying to fight it but I only remember bits and pieces of what happened.
I would therefore like to know if anybody else has hear of cases like this so I may get a better understanding of it. I'm convinced its a sleeping disorder...but my major concern is that my hallucinations n panic attacks are associated with me feeling like I'm going to die....No, I don't mean fear of sleeping and dying...I mean that these hallucinations are showing/telling or making me i'm going to die shortly in the exact way that I see it.