Any success stories with CBT?
I'm new to this forum but not this board. I usually hang out at the menopause board because my hormones are causing so many odd and angering symptoms. But the insomnia is by the most disturbing and frustrating.
I had this happen last year at the exact same time of the year but last year I had intense heart palpitations. This year it's just the insomnia. So this year I have come to realize *I* am doing this to myself. I go from summer off with the kids back to the routine of school. This year my oldest began middle school which starts at 7:30 am. For 10yrs my boys didn't start their school day till 9:00 am. I've been a fragmented sleeper since having kids. Before kids I was a wonderful sleeper! After having kids, the waking every couple of hours for feedings during infancy, the night time visits by toddlers, the up and down all night with sick kids has sort of reconditioned me to sleep fragmented. Having said that, when the kids didn't need to be to school till 9am, even if I woke in the middle of the night and laid there for 2hrs before falling back to sleep, I still had 4-5hrs left before having to actually get up. Even fragmented, I would still get 7-8hrs of sleep.
That has all changed with this new, earlier schedule. If I end up waking up and doing what I've always done of laying awake for an hour or 2, I just shaved my night of sleep down to 5 1/2-6hrs of sleep. This has been going on since August and I'm beat, I feel defeated, depressed and like this is the way my life is going to be till my son learns to get himself ready in the morning and drive himself to school. Four years. And that's not an option.
I know I don't have sleep apnea. Because before this, I would sleep in chunks of 4-5hrs, wake, either fall right back to sleep or lay there but still fall back to sleep unaided by meds. No exhaustion, no headache, no day time fatigue. I'm not over weight and I just can't buy into the designer disease of sleep apnea that is suggested *immediately* by any sleep doctor I've seen.
So I have realized I am causing my negative feelings of sleep. I've done the sleep bargaining right from the beginning - "if I fall asleep now, I'll get 8hrs of sleep." An hour passes - "If I fall asleep right now, I'll get 7hrs of sleep." Etc. Till I'm down to 5-6hrs and I break down and take a xanex or go sit on the couch with glass of whiskey and wake feeling unrefreshed the next day.
I have an appt with a cognitive behavioral therapist for next week and want to know if anyone has tried it and if anyone has had success with it? To be honest, there needs to be some success stories on this forum. I came here looking for help or answers and feel absolutely hopeless. I would hope those that have had some success in some way at all with insomnia would come back and share those stories here because, even though there is some comfort in knowing one is not alone in this torture, it's pretty depressing to see there seems to be no resolution for so many here.
So if anyone has had success, even if not perfect, with CBT or acupuncture or anything else besides taking different drugs, could you please share? Thanks. And I really hope you all can find some way of resolving this hell of insomnia and get the sleep you need!