Insomnia problems need some help
This is going to be long.. i'm going to tell you guys everything, there will be a shortened TL;DR at the bottom if you don't feel like reading my whole story but i'd appreciate someone to hear me out.
Hi everyone i'm coming here for some help/advice on what's been going on with me. I am a 20 year old male and Let me start by saying i've never had ANY sleep problems until now. in fact, i was a pretty damn good sleeper and was notorious for sleeping 10-11 hours and making my girlfriend mad that i was always late to things because i loved sleeping lol About 8 days ago i had trouble sleeping.. I ate some shrimp and pasta at olive garden that did not agree with my stomach and i felt sick all night and was back and forth from going downstairs to try and sleep on my couch, and back upstairs to my bed just trying to find somewhere i could fall asleep. I was a mess i don't think i got any sleep that night. Well, I've never been diagnosed with any anxiety problems from a doctor but there's a history of anxiety problems in my family and i definitely know at times i have it. But after that night the next few preceeding nights i was so anxious and nervous that i wouldn't be able to sleep.. So the next night i was up all night wondering why i can't sleep and trying to WILL myself to sleep which just makes matters worse. This went on for like 3 days until i finally decided to go see a doctor. I don't have insurance though so i can't really afford expensive blood tests and the such. The doctor i went to was a doctor i've never seen before so he didn't know me, was just trying really hard to understand what was going on from what i was telling him. He ended up diagnosing me with anxiety and prescribing me .50 mg pills of ativan to sleep at night. but only 10 of them because he isn't my doctor and wanted me to make a follow-up appointment with my real doctor once my insurance is straightened out. This gave me high hopes so i went home that night and 30 minutes before i decided i was going to bed i took .50mg and went and laid down. It did help relax me and i was no longer thinking like crazy but after about 2 hours i still just couldnt sleep. It was about midnight.. i took the pill at 10. The doc said i could take 2 if i really felt i needed it since .50mg is pretty low and 1mg won't hurt me. So i went into the kitchen took another one and went and laid back down. I must have fallen asleep for a couple hours this time but i woke up and was back to tossing and turning until about 4:30am. I got fed up and went and upped my dose to 1.5mg of ativan... I know i really should NOT have done that but i did.. and still really couldn't sleep that well. So that night was a flop. I told my friend about whats going on with me and he had some 3mg samples of lunesta in his house so he offered me to try one. So night number 2 i took .5mg Ativan and 3mg lunesta.. Laid on my couch i felt conscious all night long and did NOT feel rested in the morning. I know i must have gotten some sleep because i remembered some dreams but i can't remember when i got the sleep because like i said i feel like i was awake the entire night regardless of remembering a couple dreams. Leads me to believe i slept in little 30 minute spurts and probably got a total 1-2 hours of sleep all night. The next morning the doctor who prescribed me the ativan did a followup call, and asked how it had been working and i told him not very well and then asked him if it would be safe to take lunesta with the ativan (i already did it the night before, i just wanted to hear what he said about it, because i was ready to take 6mg lunesta and .5mg ativan that night) he said absolutely not, the drugs can react and he does not recommend that at all. So i felt pretty hopeless and was getting pretty depressed and anxious, i was really really down all day and then my girlfriend told me to try trazodone with my ativan. I was not prescribed trazodone but a co-worker i know takes it for insomnia and he had no problem letting me try it. That night i slept at my girlfriends house i took .5mg ativan and 50mg trazodone. The experience i had with this was really great/bad at the same time. I don't remember much from that night i do remember i had a lot of really vivid dreams, i think i was slipping in and out of REM sleep for the majority of the night. But I woke up at 8 which is when my girlfriend had to get up and get ready for work. She put on her work outfit, gave me a kiss goodbye and said she loved me and left... and then i woke up, to my girlfriend getting out of bed to get ready.. thats right it was a dream, i dreamt her getting ready for work and leaving and it was very vivid, so when i woke up and saw she was just now getting out of bed i was so mentally confused. It took me like 10 minutes to shake it off it was like a weird foggy hangover but after that i actually felt REALLY rested. Like i must have gotten plenty of restorative sleep that night. So we thought the trazodone worked and the ativan had nothing to do with it. So the next night i took only 50 mg trazodone, and the sleep i got was pretty damn crummy and i ended up getting in a fight with my gf the next day because i was just being a grumpy jerk due to being so tired and upset about my sleep. So last night i decided to take .5mg ativan, and 50mg trazodone again since despite the foggy confusion in the morning, that was the combo that made me feel most rested. So i took them and put on a waterfall soundtrack with headphones in to help relax me. I woke up 3 hours later and the waterfall track was off ( was only a 90 minute track) so i took my headphones out and laid back down. I woke up again i think around 11:30 Am unsure and confused whether or not i slept for some reason.. but i looked at my phone and i had two missed calls from a friend of mine at 9 and 9:40 and my phone is pretty damn loud when it rings so i must have slept straight through them and here i am typing this in the afternoon, i feel like i definitely got some sleep last night which is a relief but i feel kind of funny... Like not myself, i'd give anything to just be able to be the same me from a few weeks ago that would just play video games go to bed late and sleep in with no problems.. this anxiety boost/insomnia is coming seemingly from nowhere and i feel like a loser because of how many drugs i've been pumping into my body, I've never even smoked weed and rarely ever drink i am usually very anti-drug and i like feeling in control of my body. What do you think? Keep taking the traz/ativan combo, or maybe just up trazodone to 100mg and see what that does? I know all this drug experimenting could be bad for me right? but i have to see what works best for me. It just really sucks that i feel like im doing this alone because i'm not covered by insurance and if i want my doctors opinion it'll cost me about 100 bucks a visit -__-
TL;DR version;;; Randomly started having insomnia/ increased anxiety and have no idea why. Have been taking ativan, tried lunesta, and trazodone. Ativan/Trazodone combo seems to work as far as getting me the sleep my body physically needs, but leaves me feeling sort of mentally foggy and weird the next day. Wish i had a doctor by my side through all this but i'm not the richest person in the world and i don't have insurance. Basically torn between what i should do 1. keep taking the drugs to sleep but feel a little funny and possibly develop a dependance ( god i hope i don't ) or 2. Try and go drug free and battle my insomnia but my anxiety always seems to get the best of me and i just never sleep.
Last edited by mod85; 02-03-2013 at 08:38 PM.