Insomnia relapse. Need help!
Hey guys and girls, I posted on this site at least a year ago or so. All my life I have been going through bouts of insomnia. About two and a half years ago, it has gotten out of hand again. I'm 24 years old, and have been in generally good health, I have a history of anxiety and depression on both sides of my family. I am however, more prone to suffering from anxiety which in turn causes my insomnia to get worse from time to time. For a while I've gotten better and have been sleeping pretty well, but I had a bad relapse a couple of weeks ago. I work nights at my job, so I typically work from 11pm to 8am. During the weekends I slip back to sleeping during the night and waking up in the day. I also tend to wake up anywhere from once to 4 to 5 times a day or night I sleep. If my stress or anxiety is worse, I'm prone to waking up even more. I have considered looking into a day job or changing shifts if I can. My insomnia has gotten to where I've been unable to report to work.
To make things worse, and I'm sure you guys get this from time to time, but I learned about an illness called "fatal familial insomnia" and a "sporadic fatal insomnia" thanks to a friend of mine who told me about it a couple of years ago... against my better judgment I read up and watched the documentary about it. Not a smart move at all I'm afraid, that drove me into a panic, and every time I go through a spell I naturally have that fear or suffering from such a rare illness. I've seen my Dr. about my insomnia and anxiety, I was prescribed Vistaril which helped for awhile until I developed a tolerance to it. Last week my Dr put me Ambien, but I am concerned about the side effects and dependency for it. I did take it the other day which helped me and then had little effect the next day. I slept good yesterday, but I was unable to sleep today. And I have to run to work tonight so it will be a long and dreary night.
My biggest problem for the most part when I can't sleep is that my mind races and Im always tossing and turning, and the thought of SFI just makes my anxiety even worse. I know it's stupid and irrational. I know I don't have it, but it's that darn fear that really messes with me.
But anyways! Thanks for taking the time to read this, any advice would be very appreciated. I have considered trying to change over to a day job or shift. And also, Should I consider seeing a sleep specialist, or a neurologist?
Thanks again for reading this!