Hi Malibubarbie--
Good for you in deciding to quit. I know it seems scary, and in your mind you are probably doubting yourself, thinking that you really can't do it. Don't listen to those thoughts, you can. I was like you, badly hooked, (most of us are) smoked for 30 years and quit at least 10 x. (2 x I made it to a year). This time I got serious though. I started by using Welbutrin, but only for 3 weeks. And I planned a quit date, and then on that date, I finished my last cig at noon, and slapped on a patch. I posted on this board a lot with other new quitters. I had a couple of short relapses, (after 4 months quit), but now I am doing really good, and hardly have any cravings, just now and then. I'm still learning to live without my cigs. (I smoked about 1-1 1/2 packs a day) It is wonderful not being controlled all the time by those stupid cigs. I'm in charge of my day now, not the cigs in charge of me.

I will be here if you need any help, along with other that post here. Be strong in mind...you can do this!

Deda-->15 months smokeless