Hello friends!
I did OK yesterday. During the day it wasn't too bad but I knew it would be like that. Sort of like when I have an all day meeting.
Around dinner time, it got bad. I grabbed my kids and we went out for dinner and then to the mall (can't smoke in those places).
It got bad while I was driving and then after dinner it was awful. Those are the times when I ALWAYS smoked! I didn't know my truck could start without a lit ciggarette.
So last night it got really really bad and I drove to 7-11, bought a pack, came home and smoked one in my garage. It didn't taste good at all and I got lightheaded.
I got rid of the remaining pack. I confessed to my kids this morning and they said not to be so hard on myself and to remind myself that I had one instead of forty!
So ... new start today.
That "nic fit" feeling is bad all day so far. I try to keep distracted and do deep breathing. I'm also on lots of web sites that show the affects of smoking, to try and scare myself.
I will be going to the store later (can't smoke there) and then I'll take my kids to the mall again tonight (can't smoke there either).
But ... what happens around 10 or 11 O'clock tonight when I'm sitting here alone and that strong urge hits?
One more question. I have Lyme disease and I lost my sense of balance and I'm really sick. Instead of walking, is there something else I can do to run away from the urges without actually running?
Peace and health and smoke free days to all.