I'm the worlds worst smoker! - Smoking Cessation Message Board

Onica · 02-19-2007, 07:54 AM

I don't get it. I hate smoking. I hate having the smoke in my face or around me...even if its coming from my own. I can't stand smelling like smoke. Here's the kicker...I look at people who smoke and think to myself that they have no self control and how pathetic they look doing it!!!

What's the deal? I get really angry with myself when I smoke. I've been doing it for 16 years! I know I'm getting to the point of stopping, but I've tried before and failed. I've noticed that I can smoke a whole pack plus in an afternoon if I'm consuming alcohol. I've recently stopped all alcohol because I think it was getting out of control, which I attribute to a 3 year court battle. (which I won) So now that the alcohol is gone, I have to get rid of the cigarettes.

I talked to my Dr. about Chantix, and she said she would write me a script, but thought I should try other means first because I have a VERY ABNORMAL fear of throwing up, and upset stomach seems to be the biggest complaint she gets from it. She said to use it as a last resort for me. My fear of throwing up is really severe and probably my only paranoia, but it's really bad, and if I do ever throw up, I call my mother (even in the middle of the night) That's how big of a baby I am about it. I'm 31 and married!!! lol.

I feel I've tried everything. Patch, gum, books, etc. Actually the patchs work for me, but it's the actual habit I think, because I don't want a cigarette when I have it on. I'm a stay at home mom who doesn't do much so I think I might be bored???

So I guess I'm just venting, but would like some suggestions or support if anyone has any. Thanks.

DeadFish · 02-19-2007, 08:52 AM

Welcome Onica!
I'm pretty new here, but not new to that feeling you say you have about smoking.
Actually, I think you are STARTING to get it! I've spent a lot of my life not liking my habit, but feeling powerless to do a darned thing about it.
My thought is that when we start smoking we have all these reasons that we start, whether it is to look cool, suppress appetite, we think we like it, etc... but given time, all those hollow promises don't deliver. It sounds to me that you are starting to see your habit through clearer eyes.
I'd been disgusting myself for quite a while before I made *this* attempt to quit. Every time I tried and fell down again, I disgusted myself more and made the connection that I wasn't a bad person, just one helpless to this drug habit.
If the patch works for you, go for it! If you think in your soul-of-souls that boredom is part of it, find something you like to do. Maybe try something you always wanted to but never got to.
I don't have a lot of answers, but I've got more than I did the first time I tried to quit 'for me', and I'm using them all and getting more here, and inventing new ones along the way!
I'm only 21 days into being smoke free but HEY, I'm 21 days without falling to that nasty junkie habit I see others on the street helpless to!
I only felt pukey a couple of evenings on the Chantix but learned to take 'em with food, and some folks learned to cut the dose in half for less immediate strength, but 4 times a day. Hey, that can mean an extra meal and you can make it a favorite!

Read around in here some, there are some great answers and I'm sure there will be more folks welcoming you with suggestions and support real soon now.
Keep your good attitude, as you have already slipped the blinders saying that smoking is a legitimate part of your life.
Treat yourself right if you are ready to try quitting, you deserve it!

Best Regards!
DeadFish

SanyBelle · 02-19-2007, 03:00 PM

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Originally Posted by Onica

I feel I've tried everything. Patch, gum, books, etc. Actually the patchs work for me, but it's the actual habit I think, because I don't want a cigarette when I have it on. I'm a stay at home mom who doesn't do much so I think I might be bored???

Onica, once you make up your mind to really quit, it will be a bit easier, notice I didn't say easy. I used the patch and loved it... loved it so much that I used it an extra month.... but hey, it worked.

Can you take walks with your children? Go to a park? Play with them? Nap with them? Are they old enough to know that smoking is bad for you? If so, tell them to nag you every time they see you smoking! That should help. Good luck in your decision to quit, is sounds like you are almost there.

Memaw649 · 02-19-2007, 10:32 PM

Onica,
Hi! And Welcome!
Yep! Sounds like you're about ready to get rid of this addiction.
Let me suggest that you go to smokefree.gov and read all 8 of the booklets they offer. You can download these to your computer and read them when you get time.
A couple of other good sites are surgeongeneral.gov/tobacco/ and surgeongeneral.gov/tobacco/lowlit. These will help you started on your quit.
If the patch worked before, after reading these booklets, you may be able to use them again with success this time. Read all you can on the subject. It will really make a difference. The more you know, the better able you are to beat this addiction.
Keep coming back and reading what everyone here is saying. Let us know how you are doing. Keep venting. It helps!!

Memaw

Memaw649 · 02-19-2007, 10:33 PM

Deadfish,
Has it been 21 days already? WOW! You are doing super!! Congratulations.
Keep it up!!!!!

Memaw