Hi Lorrie,
The first week you take chantix, you are taking 1/2 the dosage and they recommend that you keep smoking. I noticed that I felt some nausea after I smoked while on it, and my cigs weren't tasting so good anymore. I made sure that I ate and drank lots of water when I took my pill. Now that I am not smoking (day 4!) I don't feel that nausea. I never felt like I was going to vomit. I feel totally in control, and have been in a good mood.
It sounds like you have a lot to deal with right now. Are you certain that you don't want to at least try chantix?
Could you take it with some anti-nausea medicine?
Keep us posted on how you are doing.
deb