Quit smoking, that is!
I really enjoyed smoking and didn't really want to quit. I especially enjoyed them when driving, when I first wake up, and right after a meal. I knew I should quit and was tired of trying to hide it from some people who I didn't want to know I smoked. I was tired of my kids and some friends always getting on my back about it. I heard the hospital where I work is soon going to be completely smokefree, which means no smoking at all on hospital grounds. I work 12-hr shifts and can you imagine how that'd be for a smoker to go that long without a cigerette?
The big kicker in getting me to quit was being diagnosed this year with Type 1 Diabetes. With smoking or with Diabetes, you're at a big risk for cardiovascular disease. Put the two together and you are at an even higher risk. Also, cardiovascular disease runs in both sides of my family, which also ups my chances. Numerous family members have had heart attacks, including both my parents. Reality for me really hit when my baby brother died at age 34 this past October 28th of a massive MI (heart attack). He smoked about 2-3 packs a day of Marlboro (red package). He had a 90% blockage in his left main artery and he didn't even know it. We found out with an autopsy.
Tomorrow will be 3 weeks, since I quit. But 5 weeks and 2 days since I started the Chantix. The first week, I noticed I hadn't smoked as much because I still had a partial carton left. I had never smoked less than a carton in a week ever since I first started smoking until that week! The 2nd week, cigarettes just didn't taste right. But I would continue to smoke them anyway. After I had finished that carton (that I'd bought the 1st week), I refused to buy another carton and bought a pack instead. I told myself I'd just smoke until that night and then start up the next day smokefree. Well...I just couldn't let the rest of that pack go to waste. So, I smoked them. I did this for several days and finally, I told myself that after that pack I had the day I quit was empty, I was finished smoking for good. I knew that as long as I kept buying them, I would keep smoking them and I had to quit making excuses.
I have had some minor
cravings since quitting, but I just take a big breath of fresh air and get through those cravings. I was really frustrated about some things the other day and was so tempted to go buy a pack of cigarettes. But I reminded myself that it would only be hurting myself and not the person I was angry with. They weren't worth me starting back smoking after all the time I've gone so far without a cigarette and I don't want to have to start all over again in quitting. So, I didn't give in to temptation and the urge passed.