You know what I think? I think you're giving that patch too much
credit and not enough to yourself!
There's a lot to be said for sheer determination and strong will power, and I know
you've got both in you! I guarantee you that that patch is not
the sole reason you've stayed quit for 3 months. Take a deep breath, and when the time comes take that patch off and don't look back. It's your last crutch and once you break free from it, you're done! You can do this!
One day at a time, okay?
Best of luck and keep us updated!