Well, I never thought I'd quit; it always scared me to death. I'm 50, and I have been a steady 1-2 pack/day smoker since I was 15. I am overweight, have high blood pressure(on medication), high cholesterol, and a family history of heart disease, so I figured it was time. I have 4 grown children, and 9 grandchildren. I have been married to my best friend for 31 years.
I've been thinking about quitting seriously for a few years. I would always chicken out when I got down to the last few cigarettes in my last pack and buy more. I never even let myself run of of smokes to try. All I knew is that I was scared to death.
I am also on meds for severe panic disorder, clinical depression, and generalized anxiety disorder. My doc didn't want me doing any patches or supplements because my symptoms are doing really well on my current med plan. I read about quitting for months so I'd know what to expect, and I wasn't looking forward to quitting. I figured "I'd try quitting". I know, a bad attitude for succes.
Well, 5 days ago, I said a quick prayer, and I let myself run out of cigarettes to "try" quitting. I have had thoughts about having a smoke, but it passes quickly. I really have not had any "cravings", and my appetite/snacking hasn't increased. It's 5 days later, and I really don't feel like smoking. I am not desperate, nor am I b*tchy, according to DH. I know I will never smoke again. I can't even picture myself smoking a cigarette.
I was ready to face a torturous withdrawal, but it never came. I honestly don't know why it's going so smoothly for me, because I was prepared for it to be really hard.
Maybe some of you will think I am naive, being so early into my quit, but I am sooo proud of myself. It's almost like a drug high. I feel like I can do anything. I am sure that this feeling will spill over into other areas of my life.
I AM A NON-SMOKER!
Welcome aboard it will be a bumpy ride but we will get thru it.
