After nearly 30 years I finally stopped smoking with the help of nicotine patches just over 5 weeks ago.
I used the 20 a day patches for the first 2 weeks and then had reduced to 10 a day on the third week. I came off the patches after that because they made me feel ill.
Some of the effects of the patches I suffered included dizziness, heartburn, some awful headaches and chest muscle tension that caused some clinical anxiety...
My most serious problem is my moods.
I live with my girlfriend, her daughter (7 years old at time of writing) to a previous relationship and our son (14 months old at time of writing).
I am deeply concerned that I cannot control my temper. Little things like untidiness and clutter bother me a great deal now, making me very anxious and in turn angry or aggressive.
I donít feel like myself, I am unable to think clearly, itís as if Iím a puppet being controlled by some evil puppet-master, laughing at my decaying personality. This character that I become is stubborn, aggressive and always in the right.
My family has suffered some serious abuse from me because of this, I have even lifted my hands to my partner (undeservedly) without hitting her and I am now seriously concerned about my behaviour and moods!
Then after a period, perhaps a few days, I come to my senses and realise that Iím in the wrong. I have feelings of deep regret but at the same time feel that I deserve some sort of punishment for my behaviour.
Have there been known effects like this with the withdrawal from chemical (nicotine) addiction or should I be more concerned that I have an underlying problem?
Where can I get help for my problem?
Please, any help or advice would be greatly appreciated.