Down on myself about relapse after nearly 5 months - Smoking Cessation Message Board

hopetofeelwell1 · 09-15-2007, 06:04 PM

Hi all! I caved in. I have been in such a depression with different ailments and burst out crying and had 3 today after nearly 5 months. They were the new designer ones that are additive free but tasted like camel dung. I'm actually grateful. I have really been watching myself these few weeks especially since I had my gall bladder out and have been spiraling into a huge depression on top of clinical depression. Stupid me! Why didn't I just take my antidepressant today? It serves me right! I had the most terrible taste in my mouth and smell on my hands and feel so guilty and defeated. I think I really need a pep talk from anyone on the board because I am so weepy on top of this. I will quit again. I just can't take the taste of these things anymore. Anyone else suffering from heavy duty depression and has relapsed? Thanks so much for hearing me out. Take care--Hopeto--

bwitht · 09-15-2007, 08:37 PM

Hopeto,

Time to...get back up, dust yourself off and remember how far you have come. You had a slip. Tomorrow is another day of being a non-smoker. No judgements, time to stop beating yourself up.

hopetofeelwell1 · 09-16-2007, 04:05 PM

Thank you so much BwithT. You have really made me feel a whole lot better mentally. I wish I could feel better physically and this darned depression makes everything else 3 X worse. I feel so much better when kind people like yourself come to the board. You have been nicer to me than I've been to myself and I hope I can repay the kindness someday. Thanks again and take care--Hopeto--

djm310 · 09-16-2007, 09:47 PM

Thank you so much for your post...I also have almost 5 months and had a thought or two recently that it probably wouldn't hurt if I had one cigarette. That's actually why I looked at the board again after all this time. I definately got what I needed.
You can get back on track! Forgive yourself and come on back....

bwitht · 09-17-2007, 01:06 AM

That's the spirit both of you. Way to go! This is a marathon we all are running and if one of us should happen to trip or stumble, maybe even fall down, there are others that are running along with us that will help us back up on our feet. They will give us encouragement, even hold our hand for awhile. Then when we are feeling strong and we see another runner in need, we will help them. This marathon is not an individual race, HealthBoards has made us a team.