Thank you for your post - I am feeling exactly what you describe. Like you, I also luvvvvved smoking. I have to agree w/ Steno, if you find the answer, market it. In the mean time you have to find another lover. Find something that maybe you were unable to accomplish before - because of your smoking.
I have been cleaning like a mad woman and home improvements are next on my list. I also started jogging lately, this has been very rewarding. When I was smoking all the time I would see people jogging and think, "I would love to do that." So, I started doing that. Previously, I would try to go jogging with my husband and nearly callapse, (I'm sure smoking while jogging wasn't the best idea) my husband would laugh at me and say how rediculous I was. I didn't know just how much until I stopped smoking. Well, now I can run for 3/4 of a mile, and everytime I feel so proud of myself. I am actually the person I wanted to be, someone who cares about their body. When you find something that makes you feel proud and accomplished I think it will help a lot.
I still have pretty bad cravings and I have also slipped twice, but movin' on is the name of the game.
And like StenoLady also always says, reward yourself. I have started saving all the money I would have spent on smokes and I am now up to $115.00, which adds up to $230.00 a month, which adds up to almost $2,800.00 a year! At the end of my year mark I'm planning on a trip to Costa Rica. Which only adds to my drive to stop smoking. I also calculated that in the last 23 years I have spent $64,400.00
on cigarettes. That is (explative) CRAZY! It makes me very mad. That is also drive for me.
Cigarette company's depend on us - fight the power!!! LOL.
Well, let us know how you are doing and any solutions you come up, they may also serve as inspiration for someone else struggling.