Just wanted to say to you all that you sound as though you're doing great. I realize that you may not be feeling
so great, but I don't think I've seen anyone mention anything or raise a question about anything out of the ordinary.
I stick with the board and keep reading posts from new people because it helps me feel better about how I coped with my own recovery. I really thought I was the most depressed, anxiety-ridden crybaby ever to walk the planet. Things would be "great" for a few days and then I'd go through a few weepy, self-pitying days of misery and then back to great again. Emotions were completely rollercoaster, as was the actual physical process of healing.
If you're feeling good enough to try things, that's a good sign. However, everybody - EVERYBODY - seems to have to go through the "I thought I felt good enough to do X
but it was a huge mistake and now I'm miserable." Don't let that depress you too much. You don't know your limits until you test them. Just pay attention to what your body tells you and try to learn from your mistakes. And gooooooo slooooooooow.
My advice - if it hurts, don't do it. If it doesn't hurt at the time, but makes you want to cry for mommy the next day, don't do it. And if you have someone else who can do it for you, ASK them! No macho stuff, no "but I'm so independent" -- suck up your pride and let people do things for you. Just be sure to say "thank you" a lot.
Pain and other various unpleasant symptoms will come and go for some time - months, even. Nerves healing and/or waking up can cause some freaky things. If you are concerned, call your doctor's office and be a squeaky wheel, or ask here on the board. There is almost always someone else who can relate. (and plenty who are more knowledeable and who give MUCH better advice than I do!) You are in for a journey of ups and downs, but over time the 'ups' will become more frequent and lengthy while the 'downs' decrease.
I am absolutely NOT, in any way, shape or form, saying that you "shouldn't" get depressed or anxious anything else. I'm also not saying that you are doing something wrong if you are in pain or are experiencing other symptoms. I'm only trying to say, well, I guess.....welcome to the group.
Hang in there, guys, and feel free to vent, dump, ramble, ask or whatever else.
p.s. BBP, I did get a giggle out of you going to the mall, and OHG, I think there's an extra gene or something that golfers must possess, 'cause the ones here always seem so (sorry) "driven".