Hi Elaine,
I understand what you're talking about. The pain and everything involved with that pain can overtake us to the point that we sometimes want to give up. I don't think you have anything to be ashamed of, Elaine. Some of us in serious pain for a long time feel the way you do. We understand.
I have to admit that when I was about 25 I didn't get it when people complained about pain. The only real pain I had experienced was natural childbirth, some broken bones, bruises, cuts, stuff that gets better in a certain amount of time. With natural childbirth, there's an end in sight. You know as soon as they say "push" it can be over really quick. No matter what, you know that the baby is coming out at some point, one way or another. With this neck thing, there are really no answers as to when the pain will stop. It might stop with surgery, a week, a month, or a year or two after surgery, or it may never stop. It's the uncertainty with the neck and the nerves.
ELAINE QUOTE
"... a special group that has a purpose in life."
You have really helped me by telling your story. Thank you for that and for the well wishes. About 16 more days until your appointment, right? I hope He'll lift you up until then, or at least once in a while until then.
I'm thankful that I feel well enough to post again. I know that there is at least one person who is not feeling well enough to post, and I hope you'll join me in a prayer for her. I won't say her name because I don't know if she would want me to. If you do pray for her, you could call her "Sunshine," and I think He'll know who you mean. She is a member here and is very supportive of everyone.
Thanks again, Elaine. I'm glad you're back.