OLDSKOOL83

This has not been my year. Very up and down yo-yo events have taken place although ive kept my cool thru it all i feel spent. I am starting to have a feeling in my chest again, the nervious anxious feeling. Its all from stress, mental, none pyshical.

I have an ex gf who is currently working out of my home ( we had opened a biz together 2 years ago and she ended up cheating on me with out mechanic in the end of jan) so i had given her a set date when to be out finaly once things settled down and i deceided id keep my home. well in a month she needs to be gone so i think its starting to bother me i have to keep hounding take your things. I do not want to be with her, i had meet another woman and started dating her after it happened.

2nd yesterday a friends mom died, she was a friend i worked with.

3rd my best female friend is bugging me saying i never listen to her and i should lol. she had a big crush on me for over a year now. its kinda stressfull being her friend at times.

4th is my job, 50 hour weeks mentally burned out.

this morning i was thinking the only time i am at peace is when im sleeping. i dont have that feeling. the last time i had this feeling for for a good 3 weeks after i found out my ex was going behind my back while we were running a biz out of my home.

when i had this feeling last time id only feel better once i drank a beer or 2, then the edge was gone, i felt better but had realized i cant keep this up.

Ive never had this chest feeling before until what the ex put me thru, it was harder then a divorce i went thru years back. i will not take pills either because i saw what the cheating issue did to her...it doubled her dosage so she could cope.

i guess im asking for a simple way to relax and ease it issues off my mind with out drinking. i guess i sorta feel im stuck in the rut right now and would like to get outta it. Just putting effort into to much anything anymore burns me out. I know somthings off because i use to enjoy riding motorcycles and thats become too much effort to even enjoy anymore.

anyone have any good advice. the friends mom who was a coworker dieing kinda set me off the edge hear, yesterday is when i noticed the feeling in my chest again and no being able to focus because of the few items of stress i do have already in my life.

also ive noticed i am not comfortable in my own home again anymore. prob does not help my home is super empty and has empty rooms after a divorce and then break up with an ex gf.

i guess i need a motivated kick, im working out every other day about 20-30 mins.