I apologize in advance if this post makes a heck of a lot of NO sense, I'm running on absolutely 0hrs of sleep again for the 2nd day in a row, and it's hard to focus.
I'm stressed - so stressed-out that it's literally affecting my entire life. I know the reasons WHY I'm so stressed, but I have no idea how to handle them, and I need serious help, or I'm literally going to give up on caring anymore.
I've had a bunch of traumatic events in my life, most recently with my ex-boyfriend of 3-1/2yrs who abused me in a lot of ways (I finally left the cycle of abuse, May-2012), and because of them I'm sad to say that I have exhausted my spirit and will. On top of the list of disorders I have, it's hard for me to move on if I can't get this under control: On the top of that list is stress, stress, STRESS.
More importantly, due to all the stress I've been under, I haven't had a decent night sleep in over 9 months. My mind races, my feet cramp and won't stop moving, and because of the lack of sleep I'm mentally losing it. I only get at most 15-20hrs of sleep a week, and it's been like that for the whole 9 months...
Now for 2 things: 1.) I'm ADHD, and have been on the same dose of medicine for the last 3yrs to help that, so at night when it wares off, my mind races even faster stressing over everything. 2.) Back when I used to go to the Stress Center, they had put me on 'Abilify', and that helped me out SO much...but I couldn't afford it anymore, and haven't been on it for the last 9 months, when my stress went through the roof, and my sleeping became horrible.
And this is my financial situation, which is the biggest stressor of all:
-Job screwed me over, so I'm unemployed now since 2weeks ago
-Crap Health Insurance
-Can't afford medicine
-Can't afford doctors or specialist
And as of right now, I'm not gonna lie, I can't name specifics off of the top of my head....I'm very, very, very exhausted. I tried a bunch of things to help with my stress, and my sleep, and I'm about to give up...I can't afford to talk to someone, and have no idea what else I can do....so if anyone here could give me advice, please let me know.
And if you have any questions, specific or not, go ahead and ask me...anything that can help me in the end, I'm all up for it.
The following user gives a hug of support to Kelno: Sick2day (08-02-2013)
It sounds to me like you are aware that you are sleep deprived and in need of a good nights sleep.....so going back to the route of the problem, this isnt all stress, but actually a medical problem. You admit to having ADHD and it definately sounds like time for a med adjustment. Bad insurance or not, you need to see the doctor and talk to him/ her about your dosage...
It wouldnt hurt you to try an over the counter sleep aid. Some people like to try herbs and supplements. I personally would pop a motrin PM, something that might help with the aches and pains- and try to get a few hours of uninterrupted sleep. I have used it off and on in the past, I have MS- and it works.
When you dont sleep, the body shuts down, Everything seems worse and work, money problems, etc all skyrocket out of control. Health comes before anything....and a decent doctor will give you samples of something to try to help you get back on track. Also, there is help for those who have no prescription insurance avaialable if you talk to your doctor...
Hang in there. Try some over the counter help if you really cant bring yourself to go to the doctor, but know, that this isnt going to resolve itself and you probabaly do need a medication adjustment.
stress is a natural reaction to trauma and things that happen to us. By giving off stress signals, we are aware that we need to deal with things which are going on around us. The best way to handle stress is to figure out what the cause is and to find healthy ways of dealing with it. Unhealthy ways would include alcohol or becoming depressed...healthy ways would include incorporating exercise, yoga, meditation or therapy to learn how to avoid panic attacks.
Talking to your doctor, making sure you are eating properly and avoiding the triggers will help...but we cant live in a bubble. Stress is all around us. From relationships to money to work - we cant avoid stress completely. We have to learn how to let go and focus on what we can change...
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Last edited by Administrator; 08-02-2013 at 10:10 PM.
Very well put MSNik, but I would like to add a few things that might be of some help, I am not sure about where you live but I do know that Michigan and Florida both have Health Departments that charge on a sliding scale depending upon what your income is the most I paid here in Florida was 20.00 when I didn't have any income at all, so you might want to see if you have a county health department. The other thing is to visit the website of the manufacturer who makes the Ambilify and see if they have a program where they will offer free medication t people who can't afford to pay for there medications. Most of the major drug manufacturers are offering this program. The only drawback on this is that you have to have a Doctor right a script for it and then I think you and the Doctor fill out different parts of the application and you send it in.If you qualify for the program which it sounds like you would, then the Pharmaceutical company would send the medication to your Dr. and you pick it up there. You have already gone through the hardest part by caring enough about yourself to get away from the abusive boyfriend, now just follow through with that self care and work on the medical aspect of your life, I think you will find yourself improving soon, now that you have decide that you are in control of your life, and let the memories of the boyfriend go, don't allow either him or his memory to hurt you or control your life anymore. I know this sounds easier said then done but trust me, I was where you are at and once that I decided I loved me more, I was able to make the changes and get the help that I needed. Once you start working on these things then I think you will find yourself sleeping again because you will know that you are back in control. Hope you find some help in all of this.