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First I want to say that I have know idea about retinal artery occlusion so I can't comment. but I can give you support and hope. did you have a stroke also? and is that a symptom from you stroke? I am so sorry you are afraid and crying about this but is understandable. I don't know why doctors are always so negative to there patients, but they are. I have a major stroke in Jan. 2010 and had little memory and could not read or write. My doctor said if I didn't recover in 3 months, I would stay that way. Well, they were wrong. It took me quite awhile, but I am here reading and writing and talking to others.
In the summer of 2011 I got a blood bacteria infection. It was really serious. I was in hopital for 20 days until my insurance ran out and they sent me home. But I had an IV for an extra 6 weeks of antibiotics and I did myself. At the hospital the doctor told my wife, by blood was so infected, I had a 50% change to make it. Well, at least he didn't tell me and just my wife. She told me that after I made it, she was worried sick about it. So my point is, don't listen to everything you hear or read. You have to get knowledge of you condition, but you can just take a little salt with everything you read or hear. Take the good stuff, and throw the bad stuff away.
After we where home after my stroke and I was still confused, my wife said if you are not better in 3 months you are going to stay like this and she started crying. And I told her. I don't believe it. You watch me and let's wait and see what happens. So you can't forget about the will of the human spirit, a positive attitude no matter what, and a faith in God who will guide you through your journey.
I hope this helped and I wish you only goodness and happiness,