Howdy partners,
It has been almost a year since my last post and it has been such a journey, it is hard to express. For those that don't know me... I had a major stroke on Jan. 8, 2010. My left brain was affected. I have a nice black hole in my brain you could putt a golf ball in to it. (That's why I stay off the greens
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Anyway, here is the edited version for my last year. I lived in Florida most of my life with my wife Anita. After 2 years of my stroke I pretty much gave up. I lost my business and about to lose my house. I was trying to drink myself to death (and almost succeeded). I left Florida and moved to Pennsylvania alone. While there, I was homeless...living from house to house. My wife divorced me and I started having seizures. I now have epilepsy, even though I have totally stopped drinking.
During this whole time me and my ex, Anita stayed in touch. Our divorce was not a mean and hateful one at all. Well, I had been in the hospital at least 4 or 5 times because of my seizures and alone every time. Anita had moved to South Dakota and has a successful business. We realized we never stopped loving each other and she drove across the country and brought me home with her to South Dakota. I say all this to say this:
Everyday is an adventure - everyday is different. We can change with them or stay in our stubborn little rubber room and be mad at the world. Depression is your closest friend after a stroke. It loves tormenting you and will keep doing it as long as you let it. Once you recognize it for what it is (a useless leech), you can get rid of it. The past keeps you resentful; the future keeps you worried - but today is what you have right now and is full of happiness and contentment.
God Bless you all my stroke survivors,
Tim
