You seem so frustrated! I had a stroke in 96'which did a whole bunch of damage. (I was only 36)
One of my main problems was/is word retrieval. I have so much difficulty with that AND memory loss - at times I can't stand it.
It's been my own experience, that these problems have gotten worse over time and not better - but that's me. It's important to know that everyone is different! What's true for one doesn't necessarily mean it's true for all.
Whatever happens please know you're welcome here anytime!!