onlyonetwisted

i was doing some research on sids i lost my youngest daughter to sids on may 24th 2003, and what i found astounded me......i read in an online encyclopedia that epiderals contribute to respiratory depression. i was so relieved. anyone who has lost a child to sids knows the guilt you feel the helplessness and the agony i wish i could tell you it gets easier but it doesn't. you never forget the pain the sheer morbid fear you feel when you hear the words "i'm sorry we did all we could to help her/him" never. nothing comforts you. nothing soothes the pain or agony or heartache. nothing stops you from wondering oh god why my baby. but perhaps this info will help an expectant mother somewhere make the right decision. i had an epideral with my youngest daughter and she passed of sids when she was 7weeks and 3 days old. i also had one with my youngest child and he was on an apnea monitor for 8 months and had several alarms. as of now there is no link between the two but if i could go back and do it again i would do it natural like i did with my first two children. anyway i said what i wanted to say i'm outta here. you all take care and i hope this reaches at least one person and helps them in some way.........................twisted