Re: Aching Arms
I just joined today and wanted to reach out and give you a huge hug because I understand. I lost my Robbie in 1986 so almost 21 years ago. I ******d SIDS message boards today because I finally want to reach out to other moms and help them get through this terrible time in their lives. I already had one son, Giovanni when Robbie was born and after he passed I thought I would never ever be able to have another but eventually went on to have two other beautiful daughters and now Giovanni is going to make me a grandma this year.
So yes, life does go on so to speak but once SIDS touches our lives it changes everything and as much as others in our family want to help, no one can understand a mother's loss as much as another mother who has walked in our shoes. I still cry on Mother's Day, Robbies birthday and the anniversary of his death. I still do the " I wonders" I wonder what he would look like, how he would be etc. And most importantly I think of him every single day. At first I wouldn't talk about him to anyone other than family. I didn't want anyone to feel sorry for me. I don't know if that makes sense but maybe some of you going through this know what I am talking about. Finally about 5 years after his death I came to the realization that by not talking about him, I was almost denying his existance so I began to share my son with the world. Funny how once I started to talk how quickly I found so many others that have had a child die.
Anyway today I decided to find a spot where I can help others cope. I hope this will be a good place to start. Even after almost 21 years I still have rough days sometimes so as much as I hopefully will be helping some of you, you all will be helping me as well.
Robbie 6/10/1986 - 8/28/1986 always in my heart.