Re: Angry mom
I, too am a SIDS mother. My 3 month old son, Harley, died in 2004. He was at the babysitter's. I wish I could tell you that all the anger goes away, but it doesn't. It does, however, get lighter. When I first lost my son, I was angry at anyone that was pregnant or had a newborn. I didn't think it was fair that I had to lose my son. Now, I hold no grudge against those women. I do, however, still hold a grudge against women who don't take care of the children they have. Since working in a law office, I have seen several cases of women who gave custody of their child to someone they barely knew, then wanted the child back so the mother wouldn't look bad.
But, there is hope. While it will never be ok that you're child is gone, it will get easier. Eventually you will have months that you can speak about your angel without crying, and then moments that will sneak up and make you cry. While the wound will heal, there will always be a scar. My scar lasts from December to March (the length of his life). If you have any questions, please feel free to e-mail me. I've been exactly where you are. My child was shocked back to life, but had such extensive brain damage, we chose to take him off of life support.