I am so sick of being the loser. I just moved to Australia and I'm going to an all-girls school. Guys just don't talk to me, ever, even when i went to a normal school. It was ok before because at least I had friends then but now I here on the other side of the planet by myself. I'm getting more and more depressed about it too because all the people here have boyfriends and since i left everything seems to have gotten so great back home. i don't know what to do. I feel like i'm just stuck being the loser with no friends here. Honestly, I am seriously going to boarding school back home but I think that might be just as hard. People who get to go to one high school the whole way through are so LUCKY.
Sometimes challenges like this help to make you the person you will one day become. I know it sounds cheesey, but, I know from experience. I didn't move in the middle of high school, but i moved in elementary school and then again in middle school. I definetly understand what its like to feel out of place, and to wish you could have grown up with the same people your whole life. That way you can be able to say you've had this friend since you were 7. But, moving helps you to gain other experiences that other people will never get. It tests your skills of adapting, and also your ability to know yourself. With me, I hated every minute of my new middle school. I was in a small neighborhood without any kids at all. So i didn't even get the benifit of knowing someone in school because I lived by them. Comepletely alone.
I had a rough time for a few years, untill I finally realized that it was all worth it. I am so in tune with myself. I feel free to be me, because I was always forced to be. I didn't have a group I've always been with to hide in. I don't know if you've ever noticed, but a lot of girls that have their little group of friends all act alike. A lot of them share the same opinion also, more so because they are worried about disagreeing with a friend, than because thats what they feel. Being a loner for a little while can help you to become yourself and find out who you are long before others do.
You have no one to hide behind. So be your own person. Who cares about other girls with boyfriends. That shouldn't bother you. It is fine for you to want a boyfriend, as long as its not just to fit in. Take the time to understand yourself and things around you. Everything will fall into place, as long as you let it. There is no use stressing yourself out, or beating yourself up about things that take time to heal. Just have confidence in yourself and find out who you are. Other people can catch on to your security later.
Eventually, everyone needs to be alone and discover themselves, how lucky you are to get it out of the way early. Thats how I feel about the situation. I love my life now, I love the way I am, and who I am. About 4 years ago, all of those "L" words would have been replaced with hate. Trust me, I know your situation, take advantage of it, you have to learn to love yourself and your life.
Change can suck. I don't know if the people at your school are mean to you or if you just havent made any friends, you didn't really say. If you just haven't made friends maybe you should try and talk to some of the girls in your classes. Most of the girls will have their own little group that they are happy with so they won't notice the new girl and welcome them in to their group, sometimes you have to start the conversation so they can get to know you a little better. As for not having a boyfriend, well that doesn't matter. So far highschool has been the worst time of my life, and guys just add that little bit more pressure that I don't need. I'm not saying that having a boyfriend is a bad thing, it's just it's not as importan as it is made out to be.