Re: i need help
What do you mean by people are going by your screen name and saying bad things?? Please read the post from CrazyBabe about her friend being suicidal. I posted on it and also left some info that's too extensive to re-post but I have posted before. I need to know more about your situation before I can try to help. But do know this....until we can really talk about it, give yourself time. If you become completely suicidal and feel that you're going to follow through, just give yourself 24hrs before doing anything.
This will give you time to re-group, as most suicidal people don't really want to die, in fact, none of them do....They just want the pain to stop and feel it's the only way out. I can tell you honestly, from personal experience....when I thought that life couldn't get any worse, there was no way out and I wanted to die, I just kept giving it a little more time and can not tell you how glad I am that I did. My life hasn't changed a ton, I still have to struggle harder than most, but my attitude has changed 180 degrees and I'm beyond happy that I made it!!! I can't imagine ending it in such pain and never knowing the happiness that I feel now. You will never know this happiness if you don't give it a chance. I promise, it will happen.
Yes it hurts when people say things that hurt you, but know in your heart, people that say things to deliberately hurt you are not happy with themselves and point fingers at others to keep from having to look in the mirror. I don't know if you still can look up someone's specific posts, but if you can, look up mine and you may find we relate in many ways...it may also give you an idea of what I've been through and may be able to help you with. I am willing, just ask. Don't be ashamed of what has gone on in your life, everyone has secrets and things that embarass them, but if you're strong enough to put it out there, you take away the power of others to make you feel bad about them. Life is a learning process and nothing to apologize for. Everyone learns at different rates, in different ways and because of different experiences. Life hands you many painful experiences but if you look long enough, you can take something positive from it.
I have been able to take something positive from every experience in my life, no matter how horrible it was. Once you get into this mind-set, you will start to be optimistic about life and be more able to see the better side of a bad situation and create the good where there wasn't any before. But this is a choice, no one will hand it to you, you have to reach out and take it. Happiness is yours if you let it. Don't talk yourself into believing you only deserve to feel the misery....no one does....but some don't know it.
If you don't experience anything bad, you'll never appreciate the good when it comes around!!!