I am 15. I've always had anger issues. Since last year, I've had thoughts of killing myself and others. I still have thoughts of killin myself, but that isn't what I'm worried about. I think of horrible ways to kill people I feel should die. When I snap on someone, it's like someone else takes over. I will put my hands around someone's throat and squeeze till they stop breathing. This has happened more than once but someone has always pulled me back. Recently, the thoughts have gotten worse. A lot worse. I feel like if someone pushes me over the edge, I will either hurt them or kill them. I can't control myself once I snap. I even like the feeling of killing people.. Help?
you need to tell a dr. immediately or call a mental health crisis hotline and tell them exactly what you wrote here. You need a mental eval. and possibly medication to get stable. this is serious. Google crisis hotlines in your area. Call and let them help you.
Don't worry about it. I found a way to ease my anger and bad thoughts. This is going to sound kinda dumb, but I started writing songs. It feels like its a way to vent all my anger without hurting anyone. I've also gotten closer to my girlfriend, and as a result, I'm happier. But thank u for your reply.
The writing is great...but you should still see a Dr. for this problem. These symptoms are indicative of a serious mental or psychological disorder and just writing songs is not likely to make it go away. Problems like these tend to get out of control very quickly and before you know it, something terrible has happened, and then it's too late.
Please go see a Dr. and let them know what's going on...for your safety and for those around you.