| | An Impossible Situation
Hello. Me and my mom have had a really bad relationship for a very long time. I'm not sure what it is, but we just seem to really get at eachother. Which, of course,is normal for moms/daughters, but I feel this is different. My mom has a lot of problems. Mental and physical. Of course, I'm not trying to blame this all on her; but I need to make sure you know the situation. I can simply ask if she knows where my shoes are, and it turns into an argument. A few years ago was when things were at their worst. We would constantly fight and scream at eachother, and it really took a toll on my school work. I didn't realize how stressed and depressed I was at the time. Since then, we've learned to hold back and not escolate things as far, just bicker at eachother. But things are starting to get bad again. I'm a really quiet kid and don't share much as it is; but whenever I do try to talk or share my opinion about something she jumps all over me. She treats me in a way that makes me feel very small, useless, stupid, and unimportant. I can only take so much of this. I've been crying a lot lately. I just started school again and I really don't have time for this anymore. It's causing a lot of stress and makes it difficult to focus on homework. It's taking a toll on my already bad health too, I'm getting a LOT of head and stomach aches. I feel like I'm in an impossible situation. I can't stop talking to my mom and get rid of the source of the stress. I can't talk to her about this because she just gets upset and it makes things worse. I can try all the stress reducing activities I want, but with the constant tension around here, it won't help much. I really just don't know what to do. I feel the situation spinning out of control all over again.
Sorry. this was a bit of a rant. I guess I was venting a little.
Also; I typed this very fast and I know there will be a ton of typos and spelling errors. Sorry!
And lastly; I know a lot of people are going to read this and think it's just normal teen drama and an upse kid. Which may be partly true, but I truly feel I'm in a unique situation. I'm not a normal teen, I'm level headed and rational. My mom isn't a normal mom; she has a long list of mental issues she's on meds for, and a longer list of screwy relationships she caused.