I don't want surgery!
I'm a mess. I know it could be worse, but I am a mess. I have a multi nodular thyroid (one 1.5mm on the low left and ithsmus and 7-8 smaller on the upper right...all calcified). I have been on 100 mcg of levoxyl for about a year. I've had the big sucker hemmorage in on me (I'm a blues singer and I over did it one night). My function has been on the lower end of normal since day one. BUT...I am cold, don't sleep, overweight, dry skin, dry eyes, dry hair, thin hair, thin nails, depression, anxiety.....need I go on?
I had I biopsy in Dec. of '03 with no problems. The procedure itself went well despite my nervousness. No bruising, little pain afterward. Inconclusive result. This was done by an ENT. He wanted to take the left half out anyway. I paniced and got a second oppinion from an endrocrinologist. She disagreed and wanted to give me the levoxyl and monitor me. FINE WITH ME!
The next ultrasound showed NO evidence of nodes. So...I stopped the levoxyl on my own and ran away happy.
Well....it's back and it brought friends. And now they are calcified. I had a biopsy (sort of) on Thursday last week (she got the needle in 3x and got no sample). This one hurt WAY more than the first! She had to stop because I was flipping out so bad. Now she says it HAS to come out...the whole thing....because she can't monitor me for cancer.
I sing. It's who I am and what I do. I am terrified of this surgery. I know that my vocal muscles can be nicked. I know I will not be singing for a year after the surgery. If something goes wrong, they mind as well just kill me on the table. I am not being over dramatic.
I had to vent. I know the ultimate answer is "get it out". But I don't want to.