It is so hard to be patient too. I just refilled my old prescrip for 100mgs and I gotta tell ya, the temptation to cut them in half and take 50 + the new 125 script is so strong. But I think that would be too big of a jump and it would also cause the trust between my doctor and myself to be damaged. And so far, he is hanging in there with me. I didn't think he would since my TSH dropped. He said from the get go that he was ok with the 75% ranges for the FT's as long as he didn't supress my thyroid. Well, isn't that what really has to happen for true effectiveness?
Yes, I'm still having hypo symptoms, the past 3 weeks now have been awful. Just yesterday I was so depressed but knew I had to hide it from my hubby. So right before he came home I vacuumed the upstairs (which very much needed it) and made sure I had something for dinner. I'm crankier, still gaining weight and feel like I'm crawling out of my skin sometimes. I've been more tired - if that is possible and the kids were looking at me this morning as I got up right before 11am. Yesterday it was almost noon. I can't sleep at night, my sex drive perked up a bit about 6 weeks ago and then died again. Poor hubby.
Of course since I'm still gaining, I have about 130# on me extra, so that doesn't exactly help how I feel about myself.
I just want to feel better. I have been like this for years now and thinking it was just me. But about a year ago, I got to thinking something really is wrong. I couldn't lose weight like I used to - and believe me, I tried. It just kept coming on. Since then I've been doing research - a lot of it here and going to doctors. I've been to a few and that has taken a lot of time as well. We were also without insurance for about 6 months last year, so I had to stop and wait until after the holidays this last year to pick back up the crusade.
Most days I wonder if it is just me - maybe I am just lazy, getting old and plain just breaking down. I mean, all these doctors keep saying my labs are normal. But I just don't feel right. That is what has kept me going. Thankfully, I'm a stubborn soul and determined to try this my way before I admit defeat. I'm just scared that I'll get my FT's where everyone says I'll feel better.............. and I won't.
Sorry to ramble, I've been needing to vent for the last couple days and have been trying to leave my hubby alone. How he is dealing with all this so well is beyond me. They wife he married dissappeared!