Just need advice and general support...
Hi everyone! I've been reading on this site for a while now, and I love all the support you offer each other -- I just haven't known what to post until now... I don't know what there is to be said really, but if anyone could throw your random thoughts my way, I'd greatly appreciate it.
My story sounds like so many others on the site. I quit taking birth control about a year ago for a variety of reasons (after I had my gallbladder removed because of lots of stones), and I've been charting every cycle since. Things started off well for the first couple months, with my periods staying normal and my daily headaches calming down alot. Then the brain fog started. I'm in grad school and forgetting even the word for "bridge" is not pleasant, although I suppose it can be funny sometimes (I came up with "walk-across thing," which is descriptive but not so much precise.) This fog was disconcerting, but I thought maybe it was just because I wasn't getting enough sleep, as I had essentially become an insomniac, so I tried working on that, forcing myself to get in the bed earlier and not watch tv, etc. That's when the depression/mood swings started and the dry skin/hair hit in full force. Normally this isn't a big deal for people in the fall/winter, but I typically have VERY oily skin and am a generally happy person, very logical/rational, but I started coming completely unglued if DH did something "crazy" like leaving a pair of pants in the living room. All of these things began to worry me, so I jumped into research mode.
After learning alot about thyroid deficiencies and related symptoms, I went to my gyn for yearly checkup all prepared to discuss symptoms. He refused to check my thyroid, saying that he had the year before and it was normal (2.32) and wouldn't have changed that much. He threw me an anti-depressant and said to come back in a couple months. That was frustrating, of course, so I went to my internist. He was nice about everything and ran what I thought was a full thyroid panel, but was apparently only the TSH, which came back as 4.74 (their range is .5-4.5). His nurse called me to say that my level was high, but that it couldn't possibly be causing my symptoms and just to return in 4-6 months to recheck it. Went to a third doc, who tested and said that it was normal because it was 4.5 (.5-5.5).
So frustrating! But we have really crappy insurance, and I don't feel like we can afford to keep going to doctor after doctor to have tests run. Now, after doing alot of research, I have begun taking Sam-e for the depression stuff, and it seems to help balance me out alot, which I greatly appreciate... However, in the last few months, my cycles have gotten longer and longer (38+ days), and the last two I'm pretty sure were anovulatory (bbt temps were crazy, up and down all month). I know that this can happen occasionally, but I've been off the pill for more than a year now, and I'm afraid that it was just masking even more symptoms of thyroid and/or pcos problems...
We'd like to starting ttc for the first time in the next year or so and I'm getting really afraid that all these things are starting to worsen and will keep us from being successful. I'm REALLY sorry for this huge long ramble, but I don't know what to say or think anymore and would just like some advice from anyone who may have had some of the same issues/concerns. Thanks!!