Is there light at the end of the tunnel?
I'll start off with how I have been feeling for the past five years. It all started one night when I woke up in the middle of the night with diarrhea, nausea, hot flashes, sweating, tingling and numbness. Something did not feel right in my head at all. Now since that episode my life hasn't been the same. Have been seeing a psychiatrist who put me on anti-depressants and "labeled" me as having a generalized anxiety disorder. I didn't stop there! Had my blood levels checked and my hormone levels checked no thyroid check yet! Doctor didn't even really think she needed to run the hormone levels check but I persisted. My levels came back fine except for my cortisol and testosterone! They were on the higher side and out of range. Doctor sent me to an endo and they said I was fine. So I try going on with my life and can't take it anymore a year or 2 later and a different doctor decided to maybe check my thyroid levels. They ran the full blood panel. Labs came back and I was 5.5 TSH or something like that a little over the normal but not enough to treat. Saw an endo again a different one and was told I was fine and to just keep an eye out on my levels. So that's what I have done. I will now speed it up to where I am at now, I was diagnosed with hypothyroid with thyroiditis. I seemed to have been doing better since I was put on a small dose of levothyroxine and then in December my levels went into the -'s and doctor told me to go off the meds and get my levels checked again in a month. 2 weeks later I was admitted to the er and my tsh was at 41. Back to the doctors and back on meds I go. Levels went from 9 one week and 14 the next. Don't remember the other thyroid numbers. I also had an ultrasound done and one time it was inflamed the next time it was fine. Is that normal? I was also negative for anti-thyroglobulin but positive for anti-peroxide! My biggest problem I am still facing is this weird brain feeling, like I feel trapped which is really scary not even really sure how to explain it, which makes it even that much scarier for me. Just wondering if this is caused by the thyroid hormones going up and down and once I am on the right dosage should I start to feel like my old self again. I hate how it feels like my life has been taken from me, I just want it back!
P.S - I do have cold feet and hands, my heart pounds, I fatigue very easily and my skin has a few dry patches. I just find it strange to be hypothyroid and experiencing so many things that are associated with hyperthyroidism!