I'm frustrated for you, too. The arrogance of that woman is astounding. I'd be on the hunt for a new MD ASAP.
"Speed"... ??!!?? No one who is overmedicated feels well that way. It's as horrible as being hypo. If she had half a brain, she wouldn't think people actually like
And the "just a number" comment is plain asinine.
If it's "just a number", let the number be the .30 where you felt well and happy!
There are so many things wrong with the way she's treating you, she doesn't deserve to be paid with your money for it.