i have to vent
IT'S NOT FAIR! WHY DID THIS HAVE TO HAPPEN TO ME! I'M ONLY 15, I'M STILL A KID, BUT I DONT GET TO ACT LIKE IT TOO MUCH BECAUSE I'M IN PAIN SO FREQUENTLY. I'VE TRIED PHYSICAL THERAPY, ICE, HEAT, ORTHOTIC, PAIN MEDICATIONS. WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO NOW? MY FRIENDS ALL COME TO ME AND THEY'RE SO HAPPY, WHY CAN'T I BE TOO? SOMETIMES THE PAIN IS SO BAD THAT THE ONLY THING I CAN DO IS GO IN MY ROOM AND JUST CRY, BECAUSE IT IS UNBEARABLE. I HAVEN'T EVEN HAD IT FOR A YEAR YET AND IT HAS ALREADY RUINED MY LIFE SO MUCH. AND I HATE WHEN PEOPLE SAY, IT WILL GET BETTER. BECAUSE THAT DOESN'T HELP. BECAUSE ITS NOT BETTER. HOW LONG AM I GOING TO HAVE TO LIVE WITH THIS FOR? AND I KNOW PEOPLE HAVE MUCH WORSE THAN ME, BUT WHEN PEOPLE ALSO SAY "IT COULD BE WORSE". THAT'S CRAP. I MEAN I KNOW IT COULD BE MUCH WORSE, BUT DONT YOU THINK THIS IS BAD ENOUGH!!!
sorry i just had to vent a little, now that my pain came back
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"Somewhere in this darkness there's a light that I can't find. Maybe it's too far away, or maybe I'm just blind"
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