Hey Autumn, Are you feeling better today???

It has been a couple of days and I wanted to check in with you. Any news about Chris yet?
for me I am getting kind of concerned. My pts are worried that there is something else wrong with me besides muscle. They said that I should have improved a lot more then I have. I am able to move my arms, and my ear sensitvity has gotten better, but really that is about it. With my permission my pt called this other specialist that she is trying to get me to go see. He even said that it appears that i may have it worse then just muscle. They are concerned because my mouth is still locking even with my splint. I guess we won't know anything until my x- rays come back. The waiting is very hard. I am afraid of all the "What - if's". Another strange thing that has happened is :
my right side has been the most senistive for all these years, but now recently my left side is very tight and won't budge, but my right side still gets a lot more pain.
I can say that I have extreme pain under my left ear right by the joint. I can't even touch it with out pain. My pt would try to release it but she could not even touch it without me tensing up.
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME????
I am so depressed.

then I hav ebeen having so many problems with the receptionsit and even the specialist. Why does it seem like the doctors think that we are made out of money, or have this incredible wisdom about every type of insurance out there. when I feel all this pressure I coward. i don't mean too, but it is so hard for me to fight to get my pain noticed since I am in a lot of pain. My husband usually has to take care of all of this becaus eit just becomes so overwhelming for me. I feel bad because he is the one working, not me. Yet, I still call him to fix all of this. My husabd is an engineer, which keeps him already extremly busy.
I guess the reasons why I am so depressed is that everyone is getting so frustrated with my pain. I understand that they all care, but they can't begin to understand what it takes out of me just to get up out of bed, let alone anything else that might come in my day.
Sorry to just blab,
http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/gabby.gif but I think I needed to get that out of me, before I drive myself crazy.
Heather
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