Things DO get better...just not in the large strides that we'd like to see...to paraphrase the words of my favorite inspiration, Mother Theresa...If God only gives you what you can handle, he must trust me a great deal....God trusts you to deal with whatever is crossing your path...be mad, be real mad, but use the anger to help heal and keep your head up!
I've had the worst first eight months on record for the start of a marriage, but I keep fighting and looking ahead and NOT back...that will just knock you down over and over again. I get up every day and go on with life as much as I can. Take things one day at a time and if you're having a lousy day, deal with it and hope that tomorrow is better...if it isn't then there's always the next day. It sounds pretty trite I guess, but after a while, it will become a habit!
I saw my Father-in-law last night for the first time since my gall bladder surgery and my jaw surgery. He just kept saying, you look great! He was shocked; I think he expected to see me in a wheel chair or limping or something. His PERCEPTION of what I've been going through was much worse than the reality. Instead of being bummed out that he and my mother-in-law think I'm a huge burden to their son, I focused on being smug that while I didn't look great, I looked better than he expected. So there!
OK, I'm off my soapbox, but it breaks my heart for you to give up now! There are so many people that are here for you and need your support as well....do it for you and for them....
We love you!!!!! and more importantly, we're here for you 24/7...and we couldn't care less about what you're wearing or weather or not you've even combed your hair...that's the beauty of computers!
Chin up...ok not too far...it hurts when you do that!
[Edited to remove cuss words or words suggestive of profanity. The words "real mad" or "lousy" are more appropriate. Also consider using the smilies legend for exaggerated expressions or emotions. Thanks for your cooperation - Well-come Moderator.]
[This message has been edited by Well-come (edited 05-13-2003).]