Hi, to everyone out there. I have been using this board for a while now. I've been silent the past few months. And, I apologize.
I finally received my approval and surgical date for my bilateral total joint replacement. And, if all goes well, I will be having surgery on my birthday. I figured I have to top last year. Hurricane Jeanne destroyed my car last year and I purchased a new one on my birthday....so, what would top that??? I am truly believing that this surgery will be the best present ever for me
I had an 11 year hiatus from this. And, the screw which I bit down on has definitely caused my life to dramatically change. No one wants surgery. I am dreading it. But, for the past year and 3 months, I have done everything possible non invasively. I just want the life I built back, and there is a little faith flowing through this pain stricken body.
I come to the board for some advice. It seems that a lot of us are on some type of medication for our TMJD. I will soon be taken off my morphine patch, so that the medication post op will work.
I guess I haven't been to the board alot lately, because I feel like I am struggling. It goes beyond the financial disaster this has caused, or the physical struggling of severe pain, and even beyond the harm this disorder has caused on my career.
Tonite, as I type this, I feel my moods changing. Nothing horrible. Nothing bad. But, I feel more emotional, than usual. I feel like just breaking down to cry. I have thoughts about the surgery and recovery that are racing through my mind. And, these are not warranted...because I still have a little over a month until surgery. The medication is already within me. And, I have tried not taking it..to level out this mood. But, the pain is too debilitating on me to not take it.
How do you deal with the emotional changes medication subjects you to? I've tried relaxation and meditation; but, I am so worked up over having surgery.
Does anyone have any suggestions?