Ok, so af has arrived, and she actually did it a day early and cut down on my waiting...I really thought that June was our month, all of the feelings I was having I had never felt before and I really thought we had did it but I guess it was all in my head and my body was playing tricks on me. It gets so frustrating...the wanting, the waiting and the disappointment of af. Then to top it off it seems like everyone I know who isn't planning on ttc and isn't in the best of situations are getting pregnant! Why does it work this way? The one girl's situation really upsets me b/c she and her so called bf are both drug addict's and don't take care of themselves, he has been in and out of jail and its a matter of time before she is there herself

...I don't get how and why they get to be blessed with a baby...I just pray that the baby can be born healthy

! On the brighter side I am not giving up and the more the we ttc the more relaxed I become, dh and I are going on a vacation in two weeks for a week at the beach in mexico, so maybe we'll be blessed with a beach baby!

I am sorry to sound so...I don't know the word but you all know what I mean, thanks for listening and letting me vent,
***BABY DUST TO ALL OF YOU!***