Scared to Test - Trying to Conceive (TTC) Message Board

blue_eyed_girl · 04-27-2008, 10:10 AM

My cycles are anywhere from 30-36 days. Usually, the day before AF starts, I get a little blood tinged mucus. I expected AF on Friday. I jumped the gun and took a test on Tuesday. It was negative, so I waited for AF. It is now Sunday and I am on day 37. My boobs are sore. I feel a little crampy every now and then. I am trying not to get my hopes up to only be crushed by a BFN or a flow of blood. I am trying to hold off testing until I make it through day 38. I figure if AF hasn't show by then, I could be pregnant or something else is going on. I am also scared because my last pregnancy ended in miscarriage. I tested on day 32 with a very strong positive and miscarried by day 40. I haven't been keeping my temps, but I took them the past few days out of curiosity and they are in the 98's. My nonfertal temp is 97.2-97.4. So, my temps are still high or I may have a bug of some sort. This is consuming me. I really want to test, but I am scared of either outcome. If it is negative, I will be a little depressed but move on. If it is positive, I am scared of another miscarriage.

Is anyone else testing this week?

tami52100 · 04-27-2008, 01:54 PM

I was like you temped for 2years so I knew what my temp is before and after ovalation. Af was suppose to showed on 2/11 I started temping just to know when af was going to arrive the week before. before O temp 97.3 well I kept temping until 2/21 because I was terrified of a neg but even more terrified of a positive. I did test on the 21st BFP but I knew it was going to be with my temps staying up.
I just wanted to tell you that I know how you feel being scared to test I have been there for 7 years. The only time I get the nerve to test I keep my temp for 2 weeks after AF is suppose to show then I will go to the dr.
I hope you get your BFP and when you do I will know exactly how you feel then too because I am 14weeks and still terrified of a M/C.
GOOD LUCK
TAMI

h19 · 04-27-2008, 05:56 PM

Good luck Blue! I know you must be so scared....but hang in there! I am really hoping you get your BFP this time!

Let us know how it goes for you! Lot's of babydust!

blue_eyed_girl · 04-28-2008, 06:49 AM

Thanks to both of you. I am a little more crampy today and had a little pink in my cm this morning. However, I am not calling it quits until AF is full blown.

I bought two tests yesterday. If I make it through the day, I will test first thing in the morning.