magster04

ok, here's our story

We ttc for 2 1/2 years before we suceeded. I have pcos so have never cycled right. I tracked my temp pretty much that whole time too. Became second nature to reach for the thermometer as soon as I woke up. We even started paperwork for adoption but it just didn't seem like the right time. Finally, we decided to give meds a try for a few months. I was on metphormin for several months and clomid for two at 100mg. The third month, my dr upped my clomid to 150mg. That, along with our whole church finding out we had been trying for so long and praying for us was the key. Three weeks after they found out, I was preggers!!!! Could NOT believe I was actually seeing a very very faint line after all the test I'd done.

After looking at the test I dont' know how many times I called my drs office and went there, took another urine test (another faint line) had them do a blood test to assure me this was really real. Then, I went home and put a little Ohio State onsie (my dh is a fan of course) a pacifier and the test in a gift bag. Called my dh's boss and told him I had a surprise planned for dh and if it would be ok for him to take the afternoon off. He was a little confused but said ok. I picked up Dh for lunch and took him to a park. Told him to check out the gift in the bag (we'd had a friend have a baby so he thought it was a gift for them) Finally, he looked and realized it was for him We hugged, cried, laughed and used his afternoon off to tell our closest friends our wonderful news!! Was a great day! I'm realizing as I'm typing this I need to write it in my journal for our son to read someday. I honestly never let myself think I'd ever get pregnant. Was so hard to have faith.

It was very hard those years of ttc. DO NOT give up!! My Dh got a sa done and the first one said there was zero sperm. After panicking and crying a lot (me anyways) got another one done, this one said low motility, low count, high viscosity etc. Well, that along with my pcos was pretty darn hard to take. I went though bouts of near depression at times, never too severe as my dh is very good at getting me to talk out my emotions and never fussed or got mad at me the many times I needed to just cry. Finally, over two years into ttc, I got to the point where my prayer to God was, "I know you have a child for me or you would never have put the desire to be a mama in my heart. Each day I'm not pregnant is one day closer to the day I will have a child. Please help me accept your will for me and if I'm not meant to get pregnant, I know you have a baby out there who needs a mama." Wasn't long after I started praying that we had our baby on the way. Was like God was waiting for us to totally give our pain to him so he could then in turn say "Here you go"!

We now have a beautiful 18mo old son. Can't wait to have another! I LOVE being a mama. Well, that's my story, I hope it inspires and encourages those who read it.

Vi