Dear Kime
Thank you so much for your detailed reply. I have just bought Rhodia Rosia & im going to check if it has any affect on me. I have bought ginseng previously, the mild & strong one. It worked for 1 week & then gave up the following weeks. I dont know whats wrong with my body. I dont eat solids as this makes me bloated, tired, angry & tired. I luv cakes, chocolates & sweets because this doesnt make me bloated or irratable. I still go to the toilet after i eat anything but the pains, cramps & irratability has stopped after i had stopped eating alot of solids. I only eat soya & fruits now days. I cannot think, concentrate, remember properly. Im always in a sad & bad mood. I dont know if this is because of my stomach. I dont understand my parents. I feel they dont care but i dont know if im wrong. They always worry about my brother & hes perfect health & dont worry about my IBS. Maybe im complaining too much. I feel nobody understands me. My gf is trying really hard to understand me but she can only take so much. Previous to this, our relationship had terrible issues. I have hope in me but i cant help but feel everything is going wrong. Dont get me wrong, i try really hard & i have tried not to worry but nothing works.
Maybe after you read this, you might not understand but thanks for reading. I just want something to be happy & also make me concentrate properly. Im a 20 year old male, taurean & want to make a life for myself. I want to be indepedant & live on my own. I am starting my own business & working really hard.
All this problems in my life makes it hard for me to do anything else.
Theres also been some other problems where some religous people told me that someone gave me something to eat purposefully to make my stomach like this. If this is true, some people are really screwed up.
I dont know what to do & i feel like im going mad at the moment. Generally, im a calm person & i now know what it feels like to want to take something to calm you down.
I wish my life was normal & if this is my fault - i want it to come right & i try so hard. Why does this have to happen to me? Why?