Hubby has been trying to get 'cut' for this cruise, he's 6 ft tall and is usually around 175. This morning he got down to 169!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Waaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!! I am happy for him, but hate the fact all he has to do is exercise and NOT watch what he eats that much.
Good morning everyone. I have some feelings to share about my current weight...
I am now under 125. Original goal was 130, but I found that I still wasn't happy there.
Now at about 124, I find little satisfaction in the knowledge that I have lost over 30 pounds. Everytime I eat something, I worry about whether it will prevent me from loosing more or will make me gain... This weekend I was bad and ate lots of yummy but unhealthy treats. I worry that 5 pounds will show up a few days from now.
I guess my point is: when do we stop? Obviously, I didn't stop at my goal weight. When will I stop feeling too fat? When will I be satisfied and at peace with my body- enough to enjoy eating again? Enough to forgive myself for screwing up? And is it screwing up when I indulge on the weekends?
Sorry about the deep post- I am just trying to find out where I am right now with this whole thing. Maybe I am feeling lost because I don't have a goal... but I do! TO keep it off and to run in a 5K (and not finish last!).
Thanks for listening.
Sorry I didn't address any of you individually- too wrapped up in myself, I guess. That's pretty selfsish of me, and I am sorry.
froggie...you never have to worry about things like that! we are all here for you!! I often wondered how i would feel if i actually ever got to my goal..i have been overweight to some degree pretty much all my life and always in the back of my mind there is this voice nagging at me that i am not where i should be...be what if it couldnt say that anymore...I dont know...maybe it would be a little like christmas let down..you anticipate it for so long then it comes...and then its over...i think it is always good to have some goals no matter of what kind..it pushes us forward every day...for you now it is running and that is great...focus on that. try to be at peace with your weight..you wanted this for so long and now you are here!! be happy!! YOU DID IT!! http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/dance.gif
It seems pretty close to an eating disorder doesn't it? How we all obsess with food. Even after losing 30 lbs the joyness of it wore off pretty quick and I started feeling just as fat as I did with the 30 lbs on me. I look at myself and I don't see where the weight come off, but I can see where all the fat is. Sometimes I just look at myself and cry, sometimes after I eat I go and throw up just so I don't have that 'full fat' feeling. It's sickening, I'm sick of thinking about it ALL the time. I am so sick of eating out with friends only to gain 3 lbs the next day or the day after. So it is discouraging to hear you are under your orginal goal and still not satisfied. Where does it end? That's a good question. Anyone have an answer??
Sorry I didn't have any answers for you. But your post just really got me thinking how depressing all this really is.
You should be able to feel proud and happy to be where you're at....but I totally understand the feelings you have.
My, my--you all have been busy! Since I last posted yesterday morning there are like 20 new threads!!! I'm going to need a secretary to start reading & filling me in!LOL
Feeling good today; other than a nasty headache. I think it's because I've eaten moderate amounts of carbs over the past few days and today I've had about 4! Just popped some Motrin; waiting patiently for relief!!!!
I've actually stuck to my exercise program for an entire week now--no cheating! Yahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh me!!! I took a short 30 minute walk this morning and did my strength training tape. I'm hoping that tonite after dinner I can get another 30 minute walk in.
Worlds finest: Hope you are feeling better. it sucks to be sick!
Shel: hope you have fun on your cruise! You're awful brave to be taking one now--during hurricane season!!! I don't blame you for wanting to enjoy yourself--how often do you get the chance to go on a cruise??? You can worry about losing weight when you get back.
Froggie: I often ask myself how I will feel when I reach my goal. Will I be satisfied with what I see in the mirror or not? I can't answer that right now but all I know is that you have to be comfortable with your own body. Go by how your body feels. If you feel good at 125; try to maintain it. you may find that at a lower weight you begin to feel lousy--this may be your body's way of telling you that it is time to stop losing. Listen to your body; never trade pounds for poor health. There are so many "thin" girls out there who are destroying their bodies to look that way. It's not worth it! If you are unsatisfied with the way you look at 124; maybe you just need to work on toning and not weightloss. There is a big difference in the two! Whatever you chose; best wishes to you!
Ap: where are you at girlie? I've read so many posts today that my head is spinning!
Well, hate to rush off but I've got lots of other work awaiting! I'd rather stay put right here though! Chat with you all again soon!
P.S. For anyone taking CLA: can you get it anywhere besides GNC and the web? I checked my local CVS Pharmacy but couldn't find it. There's another one nearby that is a CVS/GNC combo store. I'm going to check there! I was really hoping to find it today--but no luck!!!!
shel..i certainly know what you mean...my only guage is my clothes really...i lost 25 pound about 2 years ago but didnt really think i looked that much thinner at all even though the jeans i am wearing right now i couldnt wear then be cause they were so baggy it looked ridiculous! but i dont feel all that much different..sometimes i have even the opposite effect..i dont feel as fat as i know i must be! and i dont usually see that until i see a picture...why do we get such a distorted view of ourselves??
sue I think about things like that all the time...life really is too short to be obsessing about things like this but we do...dont get me wrong..I know that there is a health issue involved for some of us as well but when it takes up most of our day...like i said if i were to ever get to goal i dont think i would know what to do with myself..i would probably find something else wrong with me and focus on that...like all the wonderful spider veins on my legs! LOL! to be free of worry about all this for even one day would be great!!!
Originally posted by snoopy63: sometimes i have even the opposite effect..i dont feel as fat as i know i must be! and i dont usually see that until i see a picture...why do we get such a distorted view of ourselves??
I've totally been there tooooooooooooo!! And usually it depends on what I am wearing............Grrrr, it's tiring really isn't it? Thinking about this all the time.