| i think i need help
ok. first off i am 16 and am about 5'9 - 5'10. back in november, about a week before my birthday, i decided i was going to start losing weight, because i was very overweight. i weighed 215 ibs back in november. so i didnt really exercise or anything, but started to starve my body. i told myself that i wanted to get down to 165, and then i would stop. but it hasnt stopped there. it is february, and i weigh 140 ibs. that means i have lost 75 ibs in 2-3 months. i mean i could go a week or two without having any solid foods except chocolate milk in the mornings. so heres the deal...people have been coming up to me...telling me how good i look, blah blah blah...but i just dont see it that way. i see myself as still really fat. but, i am worrying a lot of people, so i have decided to go to the doctor, make sure nothing is wrong with my heart, kidneys, etc...and then i am going to try and start eating healthy and exercising. but i am scared. i think that i might just gain it all back if i eat again. if anyone has gone through this, please help me. i dont know if i have an eating disorder or not...but i am really struggling...so i need as much advice as possible.
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