Then theres no point to go...girl belive me i HEAR you. it's a struggle EVERYDAY. Damn thats hard to give advice to...but maybe sit down and try to figure out what around you is making you turn back to that? Whats missing? Is something stressing you out? Cuz as im basically positive you know...it's not about food...but more for control/anxiety relive/ and de stesser...like a way to suffocate your emotions...till you're suffocating yourself!
anyways best of luck to you...it's a struggle but i know you've got strength.