Hi same as you, I have a Cystocele, horrible big bulge, I am having it repaired next Saturday. I think its the only way for me, as its become golf ball sized now, and is hindering me a lot. Have a six month old girl so I will need to get a lot of help after. I am under the impression that with a cystocele as large as mine, surgery is most effective. Pessarys simply hold everything in place temporarily I think. Good luck to you.