i know that this has happened over a build up of many things and i understand what is wrong with me but ive over used talking writing emails and letters to my long term boyfriend trying to explain how i feel, or questioning his feelings towards me and its got to the point hes become fed up of seeing me so down all the time and hes not coping with it. he says he loves me, still wants to be with me and will always be here for me. he just doesnt like coming in from work absolutely knackered to come back to me crying everyday or moaning about something.
therefore ive become withdrawn my anxiety and depression has made me feel different more irritable suspicious needy towards people i love and its more difficult to feel i love them and this scares me terribly i feel like im never going to be happy again and just overall desperate with myself. then i start tinking about how hard it would be to loose him, id see him everywhere i went, how much it would hurt seeing him with another woman how much stuff id have to get rid of and clear out my room and it just turns into the anxiety loop hole.
is this normal