Nothing Can help
Nothing Can help
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Posted by Tired
on November 08, 2000 at 03:17:31:
I've been going to a therapist. I've been taking prozac. I don't think any of this stuff is going to work. I don't even know why I'm writing to this message nboard because I've heard the things people say in their replies. I wanted to kill myself, but I'm not going to do it anymore (I don't think I will). So I just have to be miserable and imcomplete for most of my life.
The answer isn't to try a different medication because medication won't change my situation. Therapists can't do anything, but listen to what I have to say and take my money (which causes more stress because don't have a job). I have no friends and I've never had a girlfriend.
I know. My screwed up life is all my fault because of my attitude (another cliche printed in self help books). Maybe I can "think positive". This doesn't change the fact that every woman in the past has rejected me (including the woman who I'm most compatible with). Its difficult to think positive when the same stuff keeps happening.
The 40+ consecutive disappointing situations with women would have been insignificant if I got with the one who was truly compatible with me. When she dissed me all of the other women mattered again. Because I realized that no matter how compatible I am with a woman, she will probably diss me for one of the reasons the other 40+ women have chosen someone else other than me.
If a guy flunks 40 consecutive math test how can he think "positive" about the 41st test. Especially when he's already tried a tutor, used study tips, met with the teacher after class, and prayed. His horrible ability in math may make him inelgible for classes like chemistry and physics. He may do poorly on standardized test and get rejected by colleges. If he gets rejected by colleges his future is somewhat limited. He can't be a doctor, lawyer, engineer, teacher, computer scientist, or a corporate manager all because he continues to fail at math. Naturally, people start to think that he's stupid. It's amazing how one thing about his life affects so many other areas. The guy starts to feel hopeless so he goes to see a therapist.
He tells the therapist that he wants the opportunity to go to college and havea chance to have a "respectable" career. The therapist tells him that "the world needs janitors too. The guy doesn't want to be a janitor. You see, the only reason he'd be a janitor is because he was too bad at math to become an engineer. The idea that he may need to become a janitor just because he was an "idiot" in math is too difficult for him to handle.
I don't think that there's a big difference between me and this guy, except my struggle is women not math.
You'll probably tell me some cliches like "You need to love yourself before you can have love" or some similar BS.
Or you'll say that "things will change in the future. There are many women out there".
Or you'll tell me how I have a bad relationship with my mother (I didn't until I became depressed. I have bad relationships with almost everyone.
Say what you wish. It probably won't make me any worst.