Who am I
Who am I
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Posted by Winter
on November 23, 2000 at 18:34:55:
I'm new to this board, so let me introduce myself. I'm a 24 yrs old computer scientist with a history of depression. I got my first 3 years ago and was put on Seroxat (I think that's the name of Paxil over here in Belgium) and therapy. Things got better and I totally got off the med. The problem is the depression returned: my studies, the separation of my parents and other family problem triggered it I suppose.
I did some research on the net (not without scaring myself I must confess), and ended up here. The stories posted here helped me convince myself that I was not crazy, but I still got some doubts/questions:
- I'm over-analizing everything at times/unstoppable thoughts, which is really freaking me outs.
- I'm afraid Paxil will change my personality and do things I wouldn't do normally. I'm usually shy/introvert, but since I take the drug I have been "extroverted". I know I should be happy with this change, but the fact that this is due to the drug and not to my own will, scares me a little ... it just doesn't feel like "me".
- I have the feeling that I have to rediscover everything:
Can anyone relate to these thoughts? Thanx for any help and best wishes to anyone ...